Folks, as we approach week 8 of the project, I have been dealing with some emotions lately. I feel just a little bit scared about my future. Not just scared about what the future of this project will turn out to be, but also my future in general. I am scared that the whole theater program thing won’t work out and I’ll go through life completely unsuccessful. I know it is a big jump from plans not working out to destruction of one’s life. But my mind tends to exaggerate things a lot and goes to the worst case scenario. Of course, I know I should not let one thing have me crash and burn but even then, my mind still can’t help but wander to, “What if?” That is something that I feel like a lot of people think about, but usually never say.
That just seems to be one of the many things about being a person on this big wide Earth. For whatever reason, if one is to show even the slightest bit of even the most reasonable panic or worry, they are brushed off as nothing but a drama queen, that has been the issue my case, at least. I feel like that nobody really understands the mind of yours truly. (My dad just confirmed that)! There are times when maybe I DO exaggerate the situation but I really do feel like people never truly understand me or my problems or the things I worry about. Whenever I try to express my feelings, I feel like I just get brushed off. That is basically a summary of how I feel to give you guys a better understanding of where I am coming from and how it has been affecting me throughout the process of this project thus far. It has not ruined the entire project but it’s certainly kept me on edge. Sometimes, the stress is not necessarily something that is good or bad. Sometimes it is just something that helps keep me on my toes. What is important is that I am keeping it together.
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